April
i say this like every monday, im going to eat healthy blah blah, but this time i mean it. Today i finally got a gym membership and tomorrow i want to start off the first day of the rest of my life the right way, dieting, exercising, atleast go to the gym 4-5 times a week or if im feeling good, even all week. i need to do this, im tired of always starting and never going thro this, tommorow april 2nd, its on.
ramble
funny thing about keeping in touch, im uncapable of it, not cos i phisically cant, but more because i cant emotionally handle it. Leaving my home town, was like any other goodbye, you always say to stay in touch, and most of the time you dont. its not that i dont think about them alot, because i do, every single day in fact, and i miss them more then i can handle, and its because of that, that i dont keep in touch. Because it hurts, it hurts so much seeing them go on with their lifes, there withought me, it just makes me remember how much i need them in my life, so because of that i dont talk to them as much, because i cant handle it. because i miss them so much it isnt healthy. because it brings tears to my eyes just thinking about our lifes withought eachother. Because ill rather remember our times together, then how we are now.
